This thinking positive stuff is tough!!! June 3, 2009

Can I throw a temper tantrum?  Can I be 12 just for the duration of this blog??  Can I just be a little bitter…????????????????  PLEASE!!!  
Truth??
I have been moping around.  I have been feeling sorry for myeslf I have been acting 5…   I want to stamp my feet and say this is NOT FAIR.  I’m not your friend anymore!  I am going to go eat worms…  Life right now is taking me for a ride… The ride of my life!  So, I can either do two things…  I can mope around like I have been or I can look around and really think.  Is my life really THAT bad… 
No.
No, really it’s not! 
I have a man that loves me,
I have wonderful children,
I have a roof over my head and I still have my sanity! 
What more do I need…?  In the next few weeks I my life will change even more… ( I know I keep saying that…  but, as the story of my life goes nothing and I mean nothing is set in stone…)  
I feel like the little engine that could…  “I think I can I think I can I think can…” 

I feel so disconnected from everything, even Komen…  I don’t feel like I need to retreat, I think I just need to put myself “out-there” but, i don’t just want to do it 25% I want to give it my all, I want to give it my everything! 

With me I know I cannot set BIG goals.  I have to set baby goals!  So, I have started to eat breakfast, Your thinking Geesh Dolores GREAT…  Breakfast?  It may seem small to you but,its huge to me!  Next?  Cardio everyday…  YAY!  Been doing that!  Don’t spend so much time on line.  GRRRR… Then I have to remind myself…   ” Baby-steps Dolores”… 

As I rise through the ashes yet again in, this new journey…  What is to become of everything…????
  I have no clue… 
Iknow one thing… I will be forever in school…  LIFE!   Learn with me…  Hurt with me…  Be happy with me…  Just do me one big favor…  Don’t judge!!!  As I go through this new journey…  Smile with me…  and send me happy positive thoughts!  In the mean time…  Hold on y’all it’s going to be a bumpy ride

PS- I’m not preggers, or dying… 

You can find life in the strangest places… May 31, 2009

This is from the season finale of Grey’s Anatomy a show that Jason got me addicted to… It was shocking to us because of the make shift vows Derek and Meredeth made to each other…
Jason and I said basically the same thing to each other…
He was the one who…:
Booked the officiant
Found our intimate private venue
He WANTED to get married…
He did everything… All I did was show up…

When we watched that episode… Both of our eyes got big and of course I cried but, this is basically what we said to each other as I was getting dressed…
He layed out his clothes(before I did and hid them) because it was a surprize to me… How romantic is that…???? Anywho here you go… We don’t have our vows on post it notes… But, when I look down at my ring I always will remember how excited he was to call me his wife…

Derek: Meredith.
Meredith: No. You know, let’s go. We gotta go. We’ve got to run to city hall. We’ll come back. You’ll check on Izzie. We’ll monitor John Doe. I’ll go talk George out of joining the army.

Derek: Look, we can do this another day.(Me)

Meredith: There is no other day! Every day is like this. Every day, there’s a crisis. There’s no time. (Jason)
Derek: Meredith.

Meredith: I love you, and I do want to marry you today, but there is no time!(Jason)
Derek: Do you have a piece of paper?
Meredith: For what?
Derek: I want to be with you forever, and you want to be with me forever, and in order to do that, we need to make vows. A commitment. A contract. Give me a piece of paper.(Jason)

Meredith: I don’t. I don’t. I have Post-Its!

Derek: Okay.(takes them)What do we want to promise each other?
Meredith: That you’ll love me, even when you hate me.(ME)

Derek:(starts writing)To love each other, even when we hate each other. No running. Ever. Nobody walks out, no matter what happens.
Meredith: No running.(BOTH OF US!)
Derek: What else?
Meredith: That we’ll take care of each other, even when we’re old and smelly and senile. And if I get Alzheimer’s and forget you…
Derek: I will remind you who I am every day. “To take care when we’re old. Senile. Smelly. This is forever”. Sign.
Meredith: This is our wedding. A Post-It?
Derek: Mm-hmm. When you sign it.
Meredith:(signs it)Now what?
Derek: Now we kiss the bride.(they kiss)
Meredith: Married.
Derek: Married. See that? Plenty of time

Nobody runs…  And so far so good…  And we have been through hell and back…  Trust me…

America’s Sweetheart!!!(Melissa from the Bachelor) May 11, 2009

I held off on blogging about Melissa( from Jason’s the Bachelor season 13) because, I wanted to see how she was on Dancing with the Stars.  The one thing that people fail to see about Reality TV  is that sometimes a person will get bad editing…  AND it was my person observation AND editing that Mel was a little on the clingy side, kinda a non-alpha type personality!  
She was sweet and nice, beautiful and funny seemed to be the all around package.  And she still is… 
It is my personal opinion that Jason messed up…!  BIG TIME! 
Love Melissa! 
I vote for her EVERY SINGLE WEEK..  and I make honey too…  And of course all the women are half naked so, he is in hog heaven…  OK,  my husband is fabulous but, come on he’s a man…
But, back to dumb dumb Jason he can say whatever he wants, add the chemistry and whatever else BS he told us!! 
She wasn’t the women for him and he got to humiliate her on national TV…   blah blah blah…  
She’s over it, I am sure it kinda stings it has too, but, Good GOLLY MISS MEL… 
Paybacks are HELL!  Have you seen Mel’s six pack!!!!????  You can bounce a quarter off her tummy…  I could be a bit biased cause, when I was little I wanted to be a Dallas Cowboy Cheerleader…  Ask my mom( poor mom)… 

I still kinda feel sorry for Molly in the back of her mind she has to be re-thinking this over and over again…  But, I think pride WILL NOT  LET HER “LOSE”, because she is a “winner” and she will not break up with him…  Over PRIDE…  even if she wanted too!  I know how that feels too… 

Either way…  Mel came out winning in the end!  And she is better off for it!  Trust me!  Here is her dancing the Samba which she got a perfect score for:

Healed… May 11, 2009

I start this blog with a HUGE smile on my face! 
May 6th past…  (The day we brought home our son) and May 9th the dates went  past and I didn’t even notice; It’s been two years since I had to resuscitate my son, something a mother should never have to do! 
Last year hit me hard, this year…  I know that with everything I have learned, about myself, my faith and God, if I didn’t have something to grasp onto, I have no idea where I would be!   It’s a complete triumph over everything I have been through these past three years!!  I have lived and learned… And I am still here with a somewhat sane mind to tell you about it( haha) What an amazing feeling!!

If you happen to be going through a bad time
Maybe it’s a date, that you want to put out of your mind
It could be that last bit of hatred and resentment that keeps you from healing
Maybe your really angry at God for whatever reason…  

Trust me time will heal those wounds…  
In a song called the ( of all people Milly Cyrus ) The Climb
There’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an up-hill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose
Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

There’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an up-hill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose
Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It’s all about
It’s all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faithYour not going to win every battle…  Your going to lose allot!  Your not going to make everybody see your side…  Some people their is no convincing…  Your not going to be happy all the time…  Life is hard…  But, if you have faith that everything in the end will work out NO MATTER WHAT…  EVEN if it’s not the ending you want it to me…  It will…  Have faith!  From your new incurable eternal( worry-wort ) optimist!  Trust me…  Time heals….  EVERYTHING!!

I love this saying!!

Run me over PLEASE!!!! May 10, 2009

Sarcasm-NOUN:
A cutting, often ironic remark intended to wound.

Not really the definition I was looking for but, You get the point?  In Savannah I am convinced more and more that drivers like to run over people!  ( no sarcasm here…)  Let me tell you why I made such a “slanderous” remark against my beloved city.  A couple of weeks ago…  We had couple of people get hit on a crosswalk( I think I’d better go back and re-read the story) Yes I was right…  click here to read the story. 
Back to yesterday.  I know that a drivers in Savannah have a problem respecting crosswalks…  I on the other hand have NO problem respecting cars…
Here’s my formula-
Me ( even over weight..) + a car in a fight?= Me losing… 

I was walking from Bay Street to River-street- ON A CROSS WALK with  my little man on white with 14 seconds left to cross this man( in a silver Honda civic…) pulls out of his line of traffic and came inches from hitting me and another women  crossing   I was in shock and filter was OFF…  And before I could stop myself all kinds of profanity was spilling out of my mouth:

1st-  YOU JERK I am on a cross walk
2nd-  CREEP YOUR AT A FLIPPIN RED LIGHT
3rd- YOU A-HOLE MY GUY WASN’T even blinking I had plenty of time to cross and you only had about 14 seconds left…
4th-  SUCKER( replace with a F please) WHERE ON EARTH DID YOU HAVE TO GET TO SO FAST THAT YOU WOULD RUN A RED LIGHT…  PUTTING TWO PEOPLE IN DANGER… 
You would have seriously hurt- A mother, A sister, A wife… 
I just wish people would stop and think before they act…

Here’s the funniest part of it all( not really) ..  I was on the phone with my husband and he heard the entire thing… All he kept on saying was “honey…”  “honey… what’s going on….”   Because he knows if my filter comes off in public it has to be bad…  But, on the flip side..  Can you imagine being on the phone with somebody you care about and listening to them being hit by a car? 

Savannah has a BIG problem.  In general. 
Me? 
I believe in the pedestrian having the right of way…  It’s courteous…   And being on the other side it can get annoying but…  I have respect for life.  Which I guess seems to be a BIG problem in this city… 

Don’t get me wrong I do love my city!  It’s awesome.  If you do happen to come.  Just be weary ifyou are a pedestrians be weary of cars and stay on the crosswalk…  No matter what a car will trump a person every-time!

Just a little salt please… April 27, 2009

OK let me take the band aide off really fast… 

Honey was laid off by Uncle Sam. 

It’s been;
stressful
hurtful
worrysome
hard
rough
Did I meantion stressful…?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

He was told “great job” but, we don’t have money for you so, please clean out your office don’t call us, we will call you… 
No, it didn’t happen like that it just feels like it. 
He was on the bottom of the totem pole and he had to go buh-bye…. 
The program that was funding Honey’s position was cut.  We knew it was happening, we just were hoping that they would find him another route to keep him on the team… 

NOPE… 

(Let me just say this really does have a happy ending… )

Whereas, I am VERY proud of the fact that I am a( part time )military wife… 
Sometimes I wonder WHO AND WHY they put people in the positions they do…  Not that I am talking crap about the military but, I can put you in touch with a FEW military wives they will tell you stories that will make your head spin (like the Exorcist). 
I’m not saying you don’t have dumb supervisors in the civilian sector  you do…  Plenty… 
It’s just…  
Well… 
Just be patient with me… 

Onward with the story…

When honey  cleaned out his office, he knew somebody else was going to be occupying it and he left all the pertinent marketing materials that this person was going to need. 
Meaning…  He took all his personal stuff…  AND cleaned it…  Like he was TOLD TO DO… ( solider clean the office…  eye eye sir…)
Well…
One day at lunch…  He gets a phone call.. ( mind you he has been laid off for DAMN NEAR A MONTH) he was told he needed to come and clean out his office… 
This was AFTER SOMEBODY MOVED IN… ( In my book that doesn’t make it his office anymore that makes it the last person occupying it RIGHT???????)
This person, MADE IT  THEIR OWN AND WAS USING THE MATERIALS LEFT because DUDE taking over HIS office  NEEDED IT!! 
Now you want my husband who has been out of work a month to come, and clean an office that he hasn’t used …
WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU KIDDING ME?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!????????????????????
Um NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  

Talk  about  adding salt to the wound…  
At the time it wasn’t funny… 
My heart hurt for my husband, he really enjoyed the job he did and by the way… he didn’t go and re-clean out the office… 
It’s funny now…. 
We get a HUGE kick out of it!  He He…

Mad moms in mini-vans April 27, 2009

I never thought in my life I would be driving a mini-van!  I never ever wanted a mini van, is a matter of a fact I would have rather chewed off a finger then drive one…  then one day I woke up with  four kids…   Yes, let me count again… 1… 2… 3… 4…  Nope not dreaming…  (BIG SIGH) Don’t get me wrong I do love being a mommy, but, at times I think WOW what on earth did I get myself into, and NOW a mini van…  

Any-who this is what it looks like, Happy Mother’s Day Dolores!!!

My mini van YAY!

Numbers 2400 and some… April 24, 2009

I wish I could find mine and Honey’s race numbers, that is what I wanted to put for the headline for this blog… 

Savannah, GA had its first Race for the Cure April 18^th, 2009.  It was a site to behold, if you could not make it this year…  Please try and make it next year, I will keep you @ my house or my parents house!  We can caravan to the race site in my NEW mini-van (ha-ha– more on that later…)

I did sign up to participate in the race but, I did not get a chance to…  I set the goal to walk the 5K in 45 mins, I will do one in of the surrounding races and maybe I will even get a chance to run it…
I was in charge of decorating  the survivor trolley, and  had an unexpected surprise  little did I know Paula Deen was going to be riding with the survivors, and  being a board member I  was given the privilege to ride with her and the survivors…  What a wonderful personality Paula has!  I did get a picture taken with her and yeah, I was star struck! 
Our ride was lengthened by the 3000 + runners/walkers that we had to let pass…

I will tell you what…  In that moment nothing else mattered…  I watched the race participants go by and I was in complete AWWWWW….

 Savannah really came through for us…  I was in shock … 
I almost lost in that moment and teared up  it several times that day but, it wasn’t until survivor/board member/friend  handed me a pink potted plant from the survivor event that I finally cried! 
It could not have been pulled off without all the volunteers that were recruited…  If you could only see the behind the scenes like I did I want to say we over 200 volunteers!  AMAZING!!

Honestly?  It’s beyond words, around 15 years ago(this month), my beloved grandmother died of Breast Cancer…  She donated her body to the City of Hope so, that women/men would have a chance to live were she didn’t…  Mom’s you didn’t die in vian…   You… Are…  The…  Reason… 

Quoted from the movie from a movie Field of Dreams “If you build it they will come…” and they did…  Thank you everybody for your passion… 

If you would like to see more pictures please click here

 

 

Hodge Podge of Stuff!!! March 24, 2009

I have been busy!  I miss blogging so much…  When I am gone for any amount or time, aside from my husband I feel like the “muse stalkers” who follow me are the ONLY ones that understand me!  He He…  I call you my stalkers because, you guys read my blog incognito… he he…   Every once in awhile I will get an email that says “ WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN!!!” I MISS YOU!!!  Only then do I realize that people are reading my blogs! 

I am well on my way to recovery!  I feel fantastic!  Everything in my body is working like it should for the first time in years! 
I will leave it at that… 

Honey and the National Gaurd Super Boat

 

 

 

St. Patty’s Day weekend was VERY interesting!  I feel AWESOMELY GOOD that I have been dubbed “THE COOLEST WIFE EVER!!!”  Well the actual statement was “DUDE YOU HAVE THE COOLEST CHICK!!”  WAHH HOOOO!!!
 I tend to think that, YES, HONEY DID END UP WITH THE “PICK OF THE LITTER”!( BIG SMILE!!)  But, it’s always nice to have somebody(s) else say it as well!!  
The day of St. Patty’s Day…(hmmmmm)  All I got to say is, me and Murphy we like dis- crosses fingers as in BFF and does the eye to eye thing…  Karma has a way of working itself out!!  And Thank you sweet Karma…
MY DAY WAS MADE… I could not do anything but, laugh!!  (AND laugh I DID… Giggle even!!)

My handsome twins!!

 

Everybody on the boat!

The boys had a blast and the children riding the boat!  Seeing their faces…  It made my heart smile, they had the best time.  Even though Victoria fell asleep during the parade Ha Ha(who does that?), and my son even made a friend that day!
If the National Guard Super boat is in the parade a-gain next year,  we are going to get them an Autism Awareness Flag because, that is what it was all about!  The Driver Scott and Throttle man  Eddie are very passionate about Autism

Honey, Scott and Ed

Awareness!!! 

Honey’s Face was covered by kisses and his neck in beads!  The standing oblations and support the National Guard got from the City of Savannah WAS FABULOUS!!  And you know what?  These men deserve it!!  Thank you Savannah for your support!!

 

Honey!!

 Honey was spotted a couple of times…  Once I find the pictures I will post the link!

In other annoying news…TWO BIG THUMBS down to our beloved President!  Way to GO PREZ….  That special Olympics comment… was tacky and hurtful…  You might have apologized to the President of the Special Olympics but, what about the parents, teachers and everybody else you offended!???  I guess we don’t count…  No, we are just living with special needs children day in and day out, for the rest of our lives…  I am glad you got your comedic 15 mins of fame with our children being the punch line….  And I guess they will always be the ASS END of jokes…
 I bet you and your cabinet make “short bus jokes”
 Well I will say it LOUD AND PROUD! 
MY CHILDREN RIDE THE SHORT BUS… 
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR  If I wasn’t afraid of the Men in Black coming and taking me away…  I would call you a good bit of names!  VERY UNCOOL PRESIDENT OBAMA!
Ok now that I have that off my chest… 

If you happen to be a supporter…  Don’t bother with your emails, curses or voodoo dolls…  I will not post your ugly comments either.
You have no idea what it’s like…  I would be upset if anybody who was a TV star or anybody in a position of power making a statement like that!  As you can see from my earlier post I keep my political preferences to myself…  I am not a hater…  I would call anybody out who made a comment like that!

Alrighty and that is that…  I am going to do a post about Melissa( from the Bachelor ) but, I just wanted to hang out and see what she was like on DWTS…  Be on the lookout in the next few days! 

Stay FABULOUS!!!

Ahh.. Yes, and I had Emergency surgery.. I did forget to mention that… March 5, 2009

So, I really have been trying to get better about blogging, and of course life happened and I was set back A-GAIN! I am feeling much much better! But, here is the email that Honey sent out to friends:

I to write and let you know what has been happening over the weekend, since there is probably some unanswered emails hanging in cyberspace. Friday night I took her to the Emergency Room for severe abdominal pain. From what they could tell, she had an ovarian cyst rupture, possibly through the philopian tubes causing some really painful burning. At the same time, she was diagnosed to have a strangulated hernia, where the fatty tissue had grown around and actually into it putting her at risk of that rupturing and her becoming septic. Effingham county hospital released her on pain meds, and she followed up with her doctor the next morning, who told her if she had any more pain to go into Candler. I took her to Candler Sunday night, and we were in the ER from about 8pm until just after 1pm Monday when they finally decided they were going to take her into surgery. She went into surgery just after 4:30 yesterday (Monday), and came out around 6, when they moved her up to a room, funny enough on the Pediatric floor due to a shortage of beds. The surgeon told me that everything went well and there were no complications. Besides being sore from the incisions along with the sore throat from being incubated, she somehow had a reaction to one of the antibiotics they gave her or possibly the IV contrast for the CT scan (they think), and broke out with hives and is miserable. She got released yesterday just after noon, and is home now and resting on lots of pain meds and muscle relaxers, as well as Benadryl for the hives. She will be on bed rest for about the next three days or so, and won’t quite be up to sitting on the computer. I’ll be checking email to pass on anything

Just think one surgery down.. Two more to go! So, much for trying to do everything at once!