Safety First!!????????

Ft. Stewart in an effort to improve the safety on and around its highway’s they ( and “they” are usually right on the money but, not this time) came up with a BRILLIANT campaign( insert catchy sarcastic phrase here…) to help eliminate unsafe drivers!!!
Well… 
I guess the only way to explain this is its an ADD’s WORST nightmare!   I am going to try and explain this the best I can. 
On the side of the highway they have these brown rectangular signs, that have these (blah) sayings… 
Example and I will para-phrase it( cause off the top of my head I cannot remember what they say). 

If your

Favorite flower

is a Daisy

Then keep

On driving

Fast

Safety First!!!!!
signed your loving General

Scratches head…
I didn’t get it at first.  Not only are these signs VERY distracting cause they are at eye level but, they want you to read every single one cause of the VERY “thought” provoking message.  They are everywhere on this stretch of highway!   I even turned around and went back and re-read some of the signs cause I totally missed the meaning.  Did I mention I do have some OCD’s?
Never mind I was driving and never mind I was supposed to be concentrating on the road(I was not)
(Does the frown face)
Daisy’s are funeral flowers (news to me!!!)??
Then my other half brought up a really good point.  You know “those” drivers that do not have hand eye coordination… 
What if they swerve off the road trying to read the signs?  Safety First they say!? 
Hmm… I honestly think they need to re think that!
Ft. Stewart gets two thumbs up for safety ( again add catchy sarcastic phrase!)

The sorted love story!

I am here to shed “light” on  your situation…  Dedicated to my Muse of slighted love!  (wink)

Love…

Writers write about it…
Singers sing sounds about it…
And everyday people try and understand it!

Once upon a time I  failed at it…  Miserably! 
Twice over! 
I promised myself that the next time I fell it would be forever!  Well…  It took about five years actually, I have been “technically” single since 1999… 
It took a LONG time to fix the scars of my past. 
They where huge:   
I didn’t trust!
I doubted everything I did!
I had no confidence in myself
I was pathetic and I knew it!  I longed  to be an emotionally stong women.  For the time being ,  I knew I was not going to be good for anybody!  Couldn’t stand my own company.  And I knew in order fo find perfect love, I had to love all my imperfections perfectly!  (I hope that makes sense!?) 
So I was went on a journey of self discovery!  Along the way I strayed.  But, I always got back on course and found my way. 
Well…  Cupid was tired of my near misses and deiced to hit the bull-eye’s.  But not right away. 
My beloved had wanderlust and needed to wonder.  So, like any self respecting women,  I let go. 

I hurt, but I knew in the end if he wasn’t the man I was supposed to be with, the man I was “supposed” to be with was going to be amazing. 
So, I went on my merry way.  I did think back many times but, I refused to lower myself and go back. 
Then by fate’s chance we started speaking again.  My love told me he no longer had wonderlust but, he was very confused.  Once again I gave him his space!
Then one day cupid had enough!  And said “I could have  sworn this was a match.”   My beloved and I could no longer fight cupid. 
We gave in… 
To this day we still look at each other and say ” how on earth did we get here”  Our love is one of second chances and renewal! 
When we protested love the most, that is when it came knocking at our door.
My advice?
Go with it. 
Enjoy it. 
Allow the wings of fate take you were they may…  Allow your happiness to engulf you!  Live in the moment and take a chance!!  I did!!  Don’t let this be another “what if…”  Look were all your “what if’s” have got you!  Most important… Don’t lose what makes you YOU! 
Think about it…

Not a TV watcher…

For those of you just tuning in.  I am not a TV watcher.  I think I pretty much went on strike when Sex and The City had their series finale! 
I watch the news I love Fox and Friends( don’t GROAN!!)!  
I cannot just sit on the couch and watch TV.  I would much rather have my nose stuck in  a book (Better yet NAPPING!!!) 
Even if it is four different ones at once. 
So, when my boyfriend and I ( now husband ) starting living together, that was one of those things I had the hardest time with.  He is a TV watcher.  
Sigh…
I am now addicted to Grey’s Anatomy, Boston Legal, Dancing with the Stars,  He even got me hooked on the Bachelor..
This week starts Premiere WEEK! YAY!!! HAppy TV watching!!

I was tagged…

I was tagged by Jenny  here goes… I will list 10 random things about me one is a lie can you spot the lie?

1.  I once ran from the cops.   I was doing about 90 on I-95, when a cop pulled up bedside me and told me to pull over…  Then went on to chase the other car that was going faster then I… 
The other car RAN and pulled over on an exit.  Opposite of were I was:-D  So, what did I do?  I took off….  hehe….

2  I would rather have a praline then chocolate… 
And frozen chocolate covered bannana’s absolutely ROCK!!!  If you can find me some those you can get me to do ANYTHING! 

3.  When I was in high school I did fashion shows and I was even paid to do one!!  I even had a couple of modeling gigs!

4.  Next year I am getting plastic surgery!  I am getting my entire body done! 

5.  I went five years without intercourse and it was the best five years of my life!!

6.  I HATE speaking in public! 
It terrifies me to no end and I honestly suck at it! 
But, get me one on one I am fantastic! 

7.  Coffee ice cream is my all time favorite ice cream!!

8.  I had a Silver Benz that was hit by a deer.  I still mourn over  my benz…  I will OWN another one! 
Those cars are fabulous!!  And very chic!

9.  This is mine and my husband’s second go around…  The first time he broke my heart! 

10.  I am fasinated by serial killers!  That is about the only time when you will see me glued to the TV is when they run those marathons on court TV or the history channel!

The morning after…

Break ups…
In the world of coupledom what’s worse then that?

Ever look back and wish you would have never given a person the way “out”?
IE:
Have you ever asked a question that lead to a break up? 
Or maybe it was a silly fight…  that really should not have escalated to the places it got… 
What ever the case is… 
The one thing I always would dread is the morning after! 
You wake up and your life has changed.  You want to pick up the phone and call your beloved… But, you can’t…
You walk through the day and your in a daze. 
Thinking, “ I am  single”
“I am back on the market”
“I am ”out here” again!”
 I can honestly say that feeling, is one of the worst feelings you could have.  I call it “the emptiness”.As quoted in the movie Some One Like You“There are few things sadder in this life than watching someone walk away after they’ve left you, watching the distance between your bodies expand until there’s nothing… but empty space and silence“

Brake UPS are NEVER easy! 
(Just a little side note:
And ladies even though you may not believe it… Brake up’s are hard for men as well!
Men do not like to be the bad guys EVER!  Trust me on this!)

So, here are some tips with dealing with the morning after!

IF you are not a runner, now is the perfect time to start…  Post brake up anxiety is a sure fire way to find yourself on Xanax…  So, why not start exercising? Honestly!  Endorphins make people happy!!  

Hobby’s…  Find yourself one!

Call your girlfriend for a Sex and The City marathon and keep away from movies like; The Notebook, Pretty Women or anything that is a sappy love story! 
Think Man Bashing he-he…

DE-Detoxify your house of your EX!!!  Do this ASAP!!!  And if you cannot do it alone….  CALL A GIRLFRIEND!  TRUST ME THAT IS WHAT WE ARE HERE FOR! 
IF you cannot throw away things then put it in a box, FAR AWAY!  As for sheets wash them!
Put away CD’s and things that remind you of him… Put pictures AWAY!!  I mean go cold turkey!  DO NOT READ OLD EMAILS!  If you cannot delete them… put them in a folder and, don’t look back!

Read the book “He’s just not that into you” and MEMORIZE IT!!!!

Next If you happen to go out with your girlfriends… On the off chance you start to drink…
GIVE THEM YOUR CELL PHONE!  You are not allowed to drunk dial!  And TRUST me you will want to drunk dial!  You are better then a booty call and if you are being dumped then…  WELL HE DIDN’T WANT TO BE WITH YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE!  Self respect will go a long ways!

LADIES!!!!!  REFRAIN FROM POST BRAKE UP SEX!  Say this after ME!  I WILL NOT HAVE SEX WITH THE MAN THAT DUMPED ME!!!

Your girlfriends will always have your back!  Just remember that!  No matter what!!!!!  BUT, do not wear them out! I give usually give my girlfriends the two week whining rule… Before I am kicking girlfriend’s arses out of bed!!!

Allow yourself ADEQUATE time before you get into another relationship! 
We all have different thresh holds… Some of us like to live in the past and others of us can just move on with our lives.  In my case it took me five years before I was honestly ready to give myself a chance at a relationship!

Remember that YOU ARE AWESOME, YOU ARE AMAZING and YOU DESERVE THE BEST!  Never sell yourself short!

Now, I am sure most of you are asking WHY am I writing a blog about breaking up..?!?!?!?!?!
Because, I remember when, and even though I am married, I never want to lose that part of me that “remembers when”.   “THAT” Part of me is what keeps me in check.  I cannot forget the lessons that I learned over the past five years of my single life. Those lesson’s made me who I am today! 

Just remember one more thing!  The morning after a break up is the hardest time!  And it gets worse before it gets better!  Give it time and it will all get better soon!

AWWWW! We found the perfect costumes!!!

Halloween is next month and we did it, we found the  BEST costumes!    We have no idea who is going to be who…  But, aren’t those the BEST!!??
Christopher is still on the fence and Victoria changes her mind every hour! We will see.  I have no idea what myself and my lovey are going to be BUT, IT’s going to be GREAT!  HAHA!!  I LOVE the whole Chicago/Moulin Rouge theme so, I might go as either….

A Flapper to a Can-Can Dancer.  But, I think it might be a little bit to over the top… Whatcha think?  The one I REALLY liked for my lovey is the Spartan (from the movie 300)                                                        
and I will go as his queen…

Have I mentioned how much I love this time of year?  Oh I cannot wait!  Details to come!!!! 

Happy Sunday Indeed!

Have I told you how much I adore my husband!?  I awoke today to the MOST beautiful flower arrangements(yes two!!)!  
I just had to smile! 
My husband is my rock…  He knows  when I need a pick me up!  
I have been under stress but,  ”good stress” things are starting to take shape with our business.  
I broke out in hives…  So, I have been living in the the nice little haze of benedryl( ahh ain’t life grand?) I haven’t been pleasant company,  even though I have been a wee bit snappy my fabulous amazing hubby managed to start my day off on the best note ever!  Sigh….  ( and a BIG smile ) 

I do love my MAC!!!

Make-up can be a women’s BEST friend! 
I like to think of my face as a blank canvas…  When I am done I am an artist of my own making!
It’s AWESOME!!  Then, make up can be a women’s enemy  Long gone are the days of pink frosted lips and blue eye shadow ( at least in my eyes. I am expressing a view here) 
For me(and this is only me) there is nothing more distracting then a women wearing black or a dark red lip liner and her lips are either
1.  not filled in
OR
2.  an off colored lipstick. 
I under stand we all have our different styles of how we put on our make up.  But, for me it’s really distracting!  I found a really great article take a look at it.  It’s how to and how not to put on lip liner. 
You might just learn some really neat tips.  I know I could always use some tutoring!  
So, the next time your are shopping around for make up!  Bring a friend!  Or better yet bring an honest FRIEND!  WE all have them.  WE all have those friends that have NO filter, yep that would be the one….  HAHA!  Bring her. 
Have a fabulous lunch and just be a GIRL!!!      
                 

Scandal on the “Biggest Loser!!!”

Please allow me to step on my soap box…
Do you read the National Enquire?
How often is the NE ever right?  This was taken from the 

December 18th 2006 National Enquirer Article, “Biggest Loser Star Dumps Wife after Affair on Show” (Taps fingers on keyboard)
If you tuned to to the reunion show you saw Marty propose to Amy.  Personally? I thought it was GREAT!  I loved it! Very sweet and I was happy for them! 
I still am but, come to find out The BL star the NE was talking  about  was Marty and Amy was the mistress.
 (Does the frowny face)
I can tell you this something I have learned. (Actually April Groves will tell you) there’s THREE SIDES to every story:
Person’s A perception of what happened
Person’s B perception of what happened
And what REALLY happened! Kai she was also on the BL3 with Amy and Marty.  And she blew the lid off of everything.   She is now in deep do-do with the NBC, I guess they sign a buncha papers basically giving away your first born and all you assets forever and ever amen…
(Does the frowny face…)
At first when read her blog,  I was all for it but, the more I milled it around in my head, I think everybody was in bad taste Marty for proposing to his mistress on public TV and Kai for airing out the  dirty laundry two wrongs do not make one right.  I have learned this the hard way.  Personally I like to be the bigger person NO matter how wrong the other person is!
This is the main reason, I do not like reality TV it’s not really reality, it’s edited to create drama for the viewing audience to reel you in so you will become a faithful follower.   If you have ever watched the behind the scenes with reality stars, they will tell you producers edit ALOT and often times situations are not really happened the way the producers edited to be!
What should have been a happy situation was sadly tainted, and I think all parties involved are in the wrong!! 
Ok I am off my soap box.

I want to break free!! Im ready to make nice…(with myself!)!

I feel like I am entombed in this other person!  Sometimes  I am OK other times it’s like a tide that takes me out to sea and the more I try and swim the more I am taken out to see…
I have a good life!  I have an awesome husband that supports me. and loves me. 
I have four beautiful healthy children that are just FABULOUS!  I am starting a new business and I have this feeling that once it catches on it could be a really good thing! 
Something is missing.  

I am a prisoner of my own making! 
Does that makes sense?
I have been going from 0 to sixty in no time flat and I am supposed to just grin and bear it.  Because, I am afraid that if I admit my shortcomings that means I am weak.  So, reflecting back on this year… 
I want to no longer be a prisoner and I want to break free, from this self distructive cycle I CHOOSE to put myelf in!
Here goes…

I got married… No longer are the days of Dolores alone time.  I am a wife…  Which puts and extra responsibility! 

I had babies…  Hmmm  that in itself is enough to make anybody cridge.  Mind you I had twins, and those mommies that have had twins know it’s a whole other world.

I almost lost one of my babies.  Three days after he came home he stopped breathing and his heart stopped.  I had to preform CPR and by the time I got to the thrid round I completely flipped out.  I could no longer go on…  luckily a neighbor came and took over and revived him.
Here.
Here, is the decline of “ME” 
From this point on…
I was like who am I? 
What am I doing? 
And Do I honestly belong? 
Then the husband and I hit a  string of bad luck
We had to deal with a scorned ex wanting to sue us.  I was  dealing with PPD( post pardum depression ), Then the my two oldest ones had to deal with the tranistion of little ones, it was not easy.  I could go on and on but, I think you get the point. 
ALL of this happened during the same time period that I almost lost my son. 
I about LOST my mind!  I wanted to cease to exsist. I gained 15 of the weight I had lost…  The only reason I got out of bed was to feel the babies.   
Depession.
It’s ugly but, it’s a REAL thing!  I know I have been batteling it.  Sometimes it completely over takes me and I have to work hard to NOT be a robot… 
So, I have been doing some “Dolores self reflection”  I miss ME…  This person I have become doesn’t like living in her own skin. 
So, what did I do?  I submerged myself in school, We opened an event planning bussiness, and I went full on getting involved in my children’s school, and I am commited to educating those who have children with Autism
It’s better… 
The school I enrolled in is called the AAWP  I am about two weeks from my certification then I have another school… It’s an even planning school that is about a year and a half.
 I am going to get back in shape! 
I made a commitment to myself! It’s something I need to do. 
Now comes the hard part. I have to  forgive myself for not being able to continue CPR on my child. 
So, in order to put my past where it belongs, I am going to speak to a support group who have gone through a similar situation like I have. 
I am ready.  It’s time.  I want to break free of my prison and retake control of my life!  

The only journey is the journey within.
Rainer Maria Rilke

Know thyself means this, that you get acquainted with what you know, and what you can do.
Menander