Today started like any other Sat. since I started doing 5k’s ( Feb 14th, 2010 Love Run) Today I had the “internal struggle…” ( as usual) 515 am…
Trust me.. I didn’t want to get out of bed, I would have rather been sleeping( come on it’s a Sat. I’d rather be sleeping, and about to go and abuse my body *excuse me* race..
If you read my blog here you’ll see my pre-race routine it doesn’t change.
Honey and I get to Savannah State for the Girls on the Run 5K
It’s Chaos! BOO!
Not to mention they run out of Pins! UGH! So, I can’t pin my race # on… I am sooo bummed..! I feel cheated! I come up with something creative! I have to tuck my # in my skirt(a hot pink running one YAY) (still pissed…)
They called “it” – And by “it”- I mean … ( line-up )
I put my head phones on.. get my warm up music on…
Put on Run Keeper…(By the way Run Keeper- you are no longer my friend!!! I found out about 1/2 that the GPS didn’t get the location.. BOO)
Runners On Your Mark… GO!
Off I went…
And my body starts hurting!
All I can think about is: I just want to get to the finish line!
That’s my goal..
My breathing(check) Stride (widen a little, D tilt your hips… There you go that *feels* better…And open your hands… YES! CHECK) Music(check)
This race NO Timers, No mile markers( so, I take back what I said about mile markers! I LOVE mile markers!!)
I get caught up with somebody who I had seen at last weekend’s race and I asked ” does this course seem longer to you?”
She said “YES”
I don’t know why this course just seemed to go on forever!! Maybe it was the inclines? Maybe it was because, I was thinking about the apple juice that I drank… When I knew better? I don’t know? But WOW… Talk about pain!
Finally! Water station…
I’m parched…(I crammed hydration… BOO ME)
I don’t drink the entire glass enough to get my mouth wet… HEAVEN!
I have NO idea how much further I have to go… (again no mile markers… I miss those)
But, my body is streaming AT ME… PLEASE STOP! My brain is saying… NO!! GO D!
Look at you!
GO D GO!
It’s an internal struggle!
I want to quit! But, I don’t I move..
I keep moving that’s it… that’s all I have to do it move right?? MOVE! That’s it! I take off again! My body just wants to give out! BUT my mind… Is telling me that’s it girl… DO IT…
GO GIRL GO!
Then I see… WTOC… Documenting my pain.. AND you know what I want to do?
Give them the finger! Yep!
I know classy right? I feel as though they are mocking me… HAHA!
I smile and wave!
(internally I give them the finger! It was my private up your’s HAHA)
Finally I see it the Stadium! And then I see them!
The smiling faces! That’s them my twins, my husband!
And they run in with me… GO MOMMA GO!
Run in HARD!
I see the finish line.. all I can think is… DEAR GOD.. “Give me wings…
All I want is to finish… This God-forsaken-longest-5k-of-my-life!!!” And I hear, “And here is another runner for a hard finish…” MUSIC to my ears!!!
Now I hardly ever stick around for the closing ceremonies!
No point I never win anything…(It’s really just me wanting to sit in my van a have the air blow on my face and if I have to throw up I’d kinda like to do it in private then, in front of a good bit of people… I’d rather keep my dignity like that!)
But, Honey is a fantastic runner… So, we have been lately… on the off-chance he places… Because he is that good! And here is another thing I didn’t know… they give out-door prizes… So, I am going to start sticking around!
At this 5K door prizes(YAY)- I am so sure I am not going to win anything I take off my shoes! HMMM.. Guess what? I won a door prize! A swatch watch! HAHA awesome!
Then they start calling off winners for the age groups! I told Honey we needed to stick around, I had a feeling he was going to place… He said NO WAY!
Sure enough 1st place in his age group!
Then they called- My age group second place Dolores S. I yelled, ”WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
And sure enough here walks up Honey with my pendant! I was floored!
Still am! I really cannot believe that ME snail moving ME…
I could say 1000000000000 reasons WHY I probably did…:
1. They did not have enough participants in my age group
2. They saw me crying at the end and felt bad for me!
3. WTOC was mind reader and, KNEW I was giving them the bird and, said hey give that girl a pendant just for having heart OK… And she also gave us the mental bird!!
Whatever the case is…
This is my 7th or 8th 5K I earned that pendant!
I will wear it everyday to remind me that ANYTHING is possible… Because, I have that internal struggle every single damn day! Days that I just don’t want to work out… Days that I want to eat chips (MY WEAKNESS) and things that are not good for me! But, I now have a reminder! Something tangible that I can see and touch! I’ve gone from a size 22 to a size 16 and that is something I can see and that is VERY rewarding but, this, this is very, different! This is something I can wear around me neck and think ” I did this…”
I get up at 5:15 on Saturdays and DO SOMETHING because, it makes me feel good!
Because, it makes me feel good in my jeans ( that don’t fit).
Because, it makes me feel good to drop *those* clothes off at the Goodwill.
Because it makes my trainer proud…
BECAUSE I WILL INSPIRE, somebody to do something , about their lifestyle that I was living a year ago…!!
So, if DOLORES can DO IT ANYBODY CAN! Take that to the bank… Get off the couch and I will SEE YOU AT THE NEXT 5K RIGHT!?!?