All The Colors Of The Rainbow- Dear Papi And Mama’a,

1 Apr

Today Starts the Bloggy Challenge! Wish me luck!

Hi Mama’s and Papi,

One day sooner then later the question is going to be asked about your biological father.  I have struggled with this many times.   What do I really say to you?  How can I spare you heartache?  What CAN I do to prevent that void that could be present in your heart.  When in doubt the truth is always the best.  So, here goes:

The truth of the matter is R___ never wanted us.  Any of us.  Which was clear in the many times I had to turn him in for lack of support.  The truth of the matter is he never cared.  You are going to have people come into your lives and tell you other wise.  But, what I really want you to keep in mind that actions speak louder then WORDS ALWAYS!  I wish I had a stack of cards hiding from you or phone calls I never allowed to happen.  He never cared enough to even put a card in the mail for any occasion.  He never took the time out to call.  
What I do have (when you are older) is a stack of emails AND instant message archives saved.  So, that you can see the lack of warmth he had for any of us.  Not to mention all the verbal abuse and complete disrespect we had to endure. 

For the past eight years we have been alone( without R___ ),For the past eight years we have had each other to lean on, for the past eight years we have been a family;  A family doesn’t have to consist of a mommy and daddy…  As you can see we have our own extended family, And the best of all, you now have a step daddy that loves you very much and wants nothing more then to be accepted as your daddy.  So, I hope one day you can find it in your heart to really take him in and love him as so. 
I did everything I could that could to prevent you from having a void.  Your Grandfather I think did a good job of filling in as daddy!  You are loved beyond measure!  You two are both amazing beautiful children.  You have brought nothing but, joy and happiness into my life.  You saved me on so, many levels you made me strong when I was weak, you made me look at life differently and you taught me so much about living.  I have loved being your mommy and I would do it over and over again.  And not think twice. 

R___  is the one missing out cause I got the best part!  And we are better off because, he is not in our lives.  I hope one day you can see it like that.  And I have faith that you will. 

Love you heart soul body and mind.

Your mommy

He didn’t have to be:

When a single mom goes out on a date with somebody new
It always winds up feeling more like a job interview
My momma used to wonder if she’d ever meet someone
Who wouldn’t find out about me and then turn around and run

I met the man I call my dad when I was five years old
He took my mom out to a movie and for once I got to go
A few months later I remember lying there in bed
I overheard him pop the question and prayed that she’d say yes

And then all of a sudden
Oh, it seemed so strange to me
How we went from something’s missing
To a family
Lookin’ back all I can say
About all the things he did for me
Is I hope I’m at least half the dad
That he didn’t have to be

I met the girl that’s now my wife about three years ago
We had the perfect marriage but we wanted somethin’ more
Now here I stand surrounded by our family and friends
[He Didn’t Have To Be lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com%5D

Crowded ’round the nursery window as they bring the baby in

And now all of a sudden
It seemed so strange to me
How we’ve gone from something’s missing
To a family
Lookin’ through the glass I think about the man
That’s standin’ next to me
And I hope I’m at least half the dad
That he didn’t have to be

Lookin’ back all I can say
About all the things he did for me
Is I hope I’m at least half the dad
That he didn’t have to be

Yeah, I hope I’m at least half the dad
That he didn’t have to be
Because he didn’t have to be
You know he didn’t have to be

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3 Responses to “All The Colors Of The Rainbow- Dear Papi And Mama’a,”

  1. Becky April 1, 2008 at 6:32 pm #

    It’s truly his loss.

  2. christygriner April 1, 2008 at 6:54 pm #

    about the wine — maybe we can do double date with the hubbies some time this sping — then i can give you a box of the whip cream mix — it’s call DREAM WHIP — it comes in a box with two packets and it is SO easy to make — and very impressive — people always love it, and the fact that it is homemade – it is yummy, too

  3. theramblinghousewife April 1, 2008 at 8:20 pm #

    I never understand dead beat parents. I try so hard to–

    But as a parent, I could never NOT want to be near my child.

    It makes no sense to me at all.

    I just can’t understand it.

    And thank God, for people like your husband! 🙂

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