I’ll start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine…

7 Jun

I am not going to make it here…
I can feel my tank dipping out really quick.
I thought coming “home” I would feel free…  Nope…  It’s worse here then in my other situation.
No cryptic blog…
It’s all out honesty..

Remember that blog post I wrote about how we need to be more courteous to people?  Because everybody you meet is fighting a battle?(you know the one I talk about trying to  off myself!)  Well a supposed friend (who is no longer a friend…) Took the blog post totally out of context and make it all about her…  Never mind the blog was a “blanket” statement I never mentioned her…  I never said anything about her…  She called me a Bitch, and a five-year old… Blah blah blah…
Then I said I had a fracture on my lower back and she fired back with ” I got what I deserved for being mean…  That was my KARMA”
In turn…I guess every BAD that is going on in her family they deserve it just as equally because they must have been mean…  It’s her family’s Karma…
How stupid does that sound…?? I even snorted out loud typing that…
Again…My tank is empty…

Were is my tolerance?
Why can’t I just have tolerance for people?
I mean how much do I have tolerate?  I know, I know… I am Christian and what would Jesus do?  Right…??
What happens when my sanity depends on things being just right in my world?  Adapt?
What if you feel your light and fire slowly burning?
Pray harder?
I guess… I will remain stead fast as I have through all these month and continue to fight!
What else can I do…?  It’s not like I can try and off myself again.. I tried that and failed… So, I gues I am supposed to live!  HAHA!!

So, I will go and pick up a bottle of wine… Have a glass and just see what new adventures await me…
In the mean time I will keep myself out of a padded room!  Sounds good!  Thanks for coming by!  XOXOXOX

A big thank you to those who supported me with that blog post…  It was a hard one to write… It took courage and guts… You guys rock!


9 Responses to “I’ll start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine…”

  1. Lisa Scarbrough June 7, 2011 at 4:21 pm #

    Have a drink for me. You have a lot of courage to say what you really think, and the one thing people seem to fear most in our world these days is honesty. I have learned that as we grow, how we define “friend” changes. (I know my definition is much different from Facebook’s.) It’s the tough situations where you really see friendship, and those who were just along with you for the ride. Despite all the trials and tribulations, you are still standing. I hate the saying “that which does not kill us makes us stronger,” but alas, I have no better words to give. So again, here’s a toast to your badass self! Cheers!

    • My Inner Muse June 8, 2011 at 11:09 am #

      I will say a toast to us both! I knew I was opening up myself to redicule and judgement… So, I took the good with the bad, she was the last person I was expecting any sort of crap from! I will continue to stand firm in my faith because that’s the only thing that is going to carry me through! And I just have to believe that the light at the end of the tunnel will soon appear! Thanks for your support!

      • Jenny June 9, 2011 at 11:33 am #

        I hope that “light” isn’t a train 😉

  2. Jenny June 7, 2011 at 11:00 pm #

    My question is why ARE you tolerating these people? Nothing says you have to listen.

    However, I’m pretty sure you won’t find the answers you’re seeking at the bottom of a wine/beer/liquor bottle.

    Know you are loved.

    • My Inner Muse June 8, 2011 at 11:12 am #

      The Genie at the end of the bottle of wine MIGHT tell me the ways of the world right? You never know… 🙂 I don’t have to tolorate drunkarous for long… Just went my dear Mummy shoves her down my throat,,, And the other one is poof gone… When you can take pleasure in other people’s pain something is really wrong with your head! And I don’t need that kind of instablity in my life. I am instable for a whole nation… HAHAHAHAHA!
      As always Jenny thank you for your support! love you girl!

      • Jenny June 9, 2011 at 11:35 am #

        There’s always the ever-popular “Excuse me, I have to be… somewhere else…” or I’ve been known to just walk away mid-sentence…. Of course, I’m not always known for my tact.

  3. My Inner Muse June 9, 2011 at 1:28 pm #

    Walking away mid-sentance is my new goal in life… along with calling sombody an angry Hobbit and hitting somebody over the head with a clipboard! ‘-) I’ve thrown a drink in somebody’s face before… That wasn’t the drama I was expecting! (YAWN)
    Jenny I love your tact! HaHa!

    • Jenny June 10, 2011 at 11:10 am #

      Did you forget the post drink-throw face-slap? That can up the drama factor considerably! Throw in a loud comment about impregnating your sister/best friend/brother’s dog for good measure 😉

      • My Inner Muse June 12, 2011 at 1:22 pm #

        OH… I didn’t do post-drink-slap… Oh, but, that would’ve been awesome! it was just a quick pick up my drink throw in his face and walk away…. BORNING!!!! 🙂

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